WHAT IF

 

An Open Letter to Veda By Chandan

WHAT IF?

The time went back to 8 years, To feel again the bliss that I felt being in love with you, The places where you and I met and the moments we spent together, our silly quarrels and the sulkiness, all those walks by holding your hand,

your warm hugs, kisses, the conversations which we had about our future endeavors. These can all be a part of a strong and long-lasting relationship.

But I don't have an "EYE OF AGAMOTTO" to go back into the past. Even if I had it I still can't change the past. I don't think it will be a mature paragraph that I wrote earlier by comparing the illustrative stories to my real-life

But still, I can't resist these silly imaginations, after that, I strongly believe whatever I'm imagining will not come true. My heart stopped its emotions and feelings towards you but my brain still trying to make 

a path to reach you. that too in a fictional way. 

You have loved me for years with lots of joy lots of funfull moments together, plenty of promises we made for each other. Have you ever felt how beautiful our love could be, but you faint everything in a single spark 

I wonder what about the time you spent with me and the words you spoke to me. However, you're not gonna be with me and you're being more comfortable going away from me. Yes, I do respect your feelings. As a girl, you'll be having 

many dreams to live your life in your own way with the person you like in all the perspectives. Yes, I do respect you in that practical way but doesn't it feel bad for ruining someone who set his entire life with you.

how can you guarantee to someone by your past? Now you are all set and started a new life. I wish you all the joy for your feature with your loved one.

What IF

You want to love him wholeheartedly. Is that true?

What IF

You say our past to your life partner?

What IF

He knows that you already had fun with him?

Does he accept it and continue?

You have to lie to him all the time, you need to act.

What IF

I say to my wife that I was in a relationship with a girl and I've brutally cheated by her?

What IF

You say with your husband that I had fun with a guy for years and after that, I broke up with him for you?

Do you feel the difference between us? I do respect your feelings because for some reason you chose a better person than me, who might be more handsome than me! he might be richer than me! He might be bigger than me!

Whatever I lost (You & Your Love) is not mine  I just felt like that. Sorry, you make me believe that.

But I'm sure whatever you lost (Me & My Love) Is All yours. 

However, you're very happy for losing me But

What IF

You realize that you lost your character. You lost the Trust. 

WHY?

Why am still waiting for you (No am not)  I really want you (No I don't) I can't conclude anything. I used to curse you in anger but the next few minutes later I'll cry for thinking bad for you. I know that you won't come back for me 

It's ok I really want to see you happy that's what I used to do if we were together, but I don't think that you will be happy without me, I still don't understand why you chose this to make me pieces?

What IF 

"I say now Thank you so much you bitch at least you explore yourself before the marriage. Thanks for keeping the value of the sacred bond of Marriage"

Puvvukonvict...................